Being Lyrica – A Change in the Psyche…

I’ve felt as though I have been going crazy for quite some time now and maybe I am, but my recent attempt at trying to rid myself of the Lyrica I’ve been taking for the last year has proven to be utter HELL, both physically and mentally! Not only that, but could the way I’ve been coping with my on-going health issues be down to the effects this medication has on the brains chemistry and not so much because of the pain…? I’m not saying the pain won’t get me down because it will, and I know for sure coming off the meds wont give me any more physical ability, but is this medication causing me more harm than good…? I believe so and it’s time I go this alone… It’s time to live clean…

My body was completely drained and in dire need of sleep – it had been 3 days since I had stopped the medication completely and I had been awake for 48 hours – after finally getting myself off to sleep I woke up within 2 hours, dripping with sweat – I was barely able to catch my breath due to blurred vision, and the voices, lots of them coming at me from all directions – they were really intense auditory hallucinations and I seriously thought I was losing the plot – it seemed my anxiety had shot straight through the roof and out into the cosmos. And my word those ants, it felt like there were thousands of them all high as fuck on acid, crawling under my skin, literally all over my body and they were angry – really pissed off –  someone had deprived them of their Lyrica!!!

It wasn’t long for the sickness and diarrhoea to join in with the nightmare and as soon as I got out of bed to make my way to the toilet the cold hit my drenched, clammy body immediately – I was struggling to just breathe, it was freezing cold and my inability to coordinate the few working muscles I have left proved fruitless – it was an all fours job – I had to get on my hands and knees and crawl, my body was just too heavy to move otherwise. It was a close call but I made it just in time and was able to make my way back using my crutches – I got a towel and placed it over the sheet to absorb some of the near constant flow of sweat, but as I was about to get into bed my nausea got the better of me – I had just enough time to grab the small bin on the floor, luckily within arms reach and spewed up nothing but bile.

I got into bed but I was too afraid to close my eyes – too scared to have any thoughts enter my mind so I put the TV on – I needed a distraction from thinking – the TV had become my comfort blanket – I was exhausted and in more pain than EVER! I just lay there and breathed deeply – all the while contemplating a Lyrica to end this hell – they were just sat on my bed-side table trying to entice me in. I was KO’d – absolutely done in with it all – the manic thoughts alone were more than enough at this point but then my stomach started playing up again and the muscles in my abdomen started to spasm – I tried to tell myself it would soon pass and that I just needed to be strong enough to make it to the next moment, then the one after that, but my stomach wouldn’t subside – I could no longer move for the battering my body was taking and there was no possible way of making it to the toilet – I had a choice to make – either shit the bed or take a Lyrica so I chose the latter…

Lyrica is an anticonvulsant that was designed to treat seizures but it’s supposed to help with neuropathic pain also – this is done by binding itself to the calcium channels on the nerve endings which modifies the release of neurotransmitters in the brain affecting the communication of pain signals – It’s not addictive in the same sense as narcotics but the nervous system adjusts to accommodate the drug – without it, all those miles of nerve endings get sent into an absolute frenzy putting the whole nervous system into disarray.

So in other words – these drugs are bad – very bad, and I would NEVER condone the use of Lyrica for any reason. Ever! It slowly creeps into your being and destroys your ability to even string a sentence together – it’s pure poison and the profound effect this drug has on the psyche is bad enough but everything else that goes with it makes the experience Hell on Earth! For the last 2 years I have been a product of anticonvulsants – I truly believe it’s prevented me from growing as a person and halted my progress in dealing with my on-going mental-health issues – as I said, my physical ability will remain the same and pain will more than likely increase but I can’t live like I have been doing. I’m currently taking 400mg daily, down from 600mg and will talk about tapering off this drug at my appointment with the pain clinic at the back end of this week – one thing for sure is I’ll be doing it as slow as possible!!!

The thing is I don’t think the professionals at some of these ‘pain’ clinics are aware of how bad these withdrawals can be – especially on top of the chronic pain and limitations which are already there. I mentioned to the ‘pain’ doctor at my last appointment that I was planning to come off the Lyrica as I didn’t think it was doing anything, yet he said nothing – ‘could’ve done with a warning you ignorant sod!!!’ It seems to me it’s strength is over-looked because it isn’t a narcotic, but these pills should not be taken lightly…

So that’s been my experience with trying to come off this filth – these are my views and experiences only – I know that Lyrica helps others to live a more active life with less pain but it’s not for me. Absolutely no chance!!!

Thanks for reading…  Follow me on Twitter @aChronicPainPoW

Advertisement

11 comments

  1. Hey Chris, sorry to hear you’re going thru hell. Stay positive and make certain you come off these drugs safely. I too took myself off of 2000 mg neurontin, and I can’t recall now, but off of cymbalta last year too. Not for me I suppose and since have felt absolutely no difference in my pain since coming off of them. They had me in a constant state of nervousness and my speech was embarrassing, I couldn’t hold a conversation for years. I find myself in such better state of mind since going off all the meds. However, it can be really dangerous to do yourself. Please take care of yourself and maybe place a call to the doctor to let him know you are doing this, sometimes they can give you something to relieve the withdraw effects for a week or two. Kudos to you! Keep the faith.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. WHICH IDIOT DOCTOR PUT YOU ON LYRICA?? IT TAKES 6 MONTHS OF HELL JUST TO GET OVER WITHDRAWALS.I WENT THRU IT. WHEN MY HEART STARTED DOING WEIRD THINGS BECAUSE; I COULDN’T EAT, DRINK BREATHE, THINK; AND THEN MY SKIN WAS PEELING OFF, DUE TO DEHYDRATION, AND I WEIGHED 90 POUNDS, THE HOSPITAL TURNED ME AWAY, BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT I WAS LOOKING TO “SCORE SOME DRUGS” GO TO YOUR DOCTOR OR ANY DOCTOR AND PUT YOURSELF ON METHADONE.IT RIDS YOU OF WITHDRAWALS AND HELPS WITH SOME OF THE PAIN. YOU CAN’T DO IT ALONE.THE F$^^%N SPECIALIST HAVE NO CLUE WHAT IT’S LIKE. YOU NEED REAL HELP,THAT WILL BE MONITORED.I ALMOST DIED TWICE.AND I HAVE (LIKE YOU), REAL MEDICAL PROBLEMS.1/4 OF MY SPINE IS GONE, BUT THE “SPECIALIST EXPECT ME TO DANCE A JIG. I HATE DOCTORS .LYRICA IS AT THE TOP OF THE SHIT PILE.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. It was my pain doctor and he’s one of the ignorant ones who work in the health service – he didn’t once mention the withdrawal when I told him I was coming off them – completely clueless. That sounds like a bad ordeal you went through – typical they thought you were looking to score some drugs – really bad form. Lyrica really is top of the shit pile, it’s lethal… Thank you…

      Liked by 1 person

  3. HI, CHRIS(CAN I CALL YOU CHRIS?) I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF YOU SINCE I LEFT THE ABOVE RANT. I GET SO UPSET, WHEN SOMEONE IS GOING THRU SOMETHING THAT I HAVE EXPERIENCED.PLEASE BE VERY CAREFUL, GETTING OFF LYRICA. YOU ARE TOO YOUNG TO EVEN HAVE THAT IN YOUR SYSTEM.THE GOVERNMENT IS PUSHING ALL THESES SHIT DRUGS; WITHOUT EVEN BOTHERING WITH THE SIDE EFFECTS///AND GOD HELP YOU WHEN YOU STOP TAKING IT. THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT THE VIOLENT SWEATS, DIARRHEA,MOOD SWINGS, DEPRESSION, AGRESSIVE BEHAVIOUR, AND MORE.SHAKING AND NAUSEA ARE THE EASIEST. I FEEL BAD FOR YOU.TRY AND TAKE SMALLER DOSES EVERY FEW WEEKS.MY NAME IS NEVI@princessmerde@gmail.com, if you need an ear.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Yeah course you can, Nevi. It’s crazy what they allow you to put in your system yet weed, which helps so many, is illegal – well here in the UK it is. I’m really no looking forward to the withdrawals again but hopefully if I taper off slow enough ill be okay – hopefully so anyway. Many thanks for your contact details…

      Like

      1. POT,ILLEGAL OR NOT; IF YOU CAN, DO IT.IT HELPS SO MANY. PAIN NAUSEA,DEPRESSION, EVEN MILD WITHDRAWALS. THE NATIVE INDIANS HAVE BEEN SMOKING IT FOR CENTURIES.PARTS OF EUROPE, USE IT FOR SOCIALIZING.I CAN’T PHYSICALLY HANDLE IT, OTHERWISE IT WOULD BE MY DAILY MENU(IT’S LEGAL, HERE IN ONTARIO CANADA)MY BAD LUCK, THAT I CAN’T(I’VE TRIED).I’M NOT TELLING YOU TO BREAK THE LAW………BUT IT IS ON THE “GOOD PILE. MY DAUGHTER LIVES IN LONDON,SHE TOOK HER HEALTH IN HER OWN HANDS.IN A FEW YEARS MARIJUANA WILL BE LEGAL EVERYWHERE. UNTIL THEN GET OFF LYRICA VERY SLOWLY.HERE THE DOCTORS GIVE IT TO US FOR FREE TO TRY.FOR SOME REASON I THOUGHT YOU LIVED IN CANADA TOO. I UNDERSTAND YOU BETTER NOW. I HAVE A FRIEND(PAMELA SUTHERLAND), FROM SCOTLAND, THAT I’VE BEEN TALKING TO ALMOST DAILY. NOW I HAVE 2.

        Liked by 1 person

  4. Thanks for the heads up. I’m on MS Contin and twenty years ago, My doctor, a family friend who I also worked for told me that it was the easiest on the liver, far superior to a Tylenol based product like Percocet and that it was hard to get since a few bad apples (5% of those who get prescription narcs become problem users,the rest of us need it to function and are careful to take as little as we can…we’re not looking to get high)….
    I printed out your post and am gonna give it to the shrink today. He probably doesn’t know about this.
    Matter of fact I am really sad about the widespread ignorance in the medical community about everything. I have Tardive Dyskinesia from psyc meds, antipsychotics and am now prediabetic from the same drugs. My primary told me to come off the Clozaril, but I need that for my Tardive Dyskinesia!!!!
    I am unspeakably sad.
    Allison

    Like

    1. LIKE THE REST OF US: YOU ARE ON A MERRY -GO- ROUND OF BAD MEDICINE AND BAD DOCTORS. WE NEED THE MEDS TO LIVE SOME KIND OF A “NORMAL” LIFE; BUT ARE NEVER WARNED OF THE DANGERS, IF SOMETHING OR SOMEONE GOES WRONG. GOOD LUCK !!!

      Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s